I hardly ever have any problems falling asleep. However, tonight I lay awake in my bed wondering if all I’ve ever done in my life is running away. For once I wish I wasn’t such a coward, but how can I change something that has become almost a way of life?
I’m always worried about what people think, and the last thing I want is to hurt someone’s feelings, that’s why I’m sure tomorrow I’ll wake up and regret having even thought about it. The uncertainty of not knowing if my job will be sending away soon or not doesn’t help either, but I guess the only thing I can do for now is try to get all this out of my head and take each day as it comes.
Night, night *
Tuesday, 14 December 2010
Wednesday, 8 December 2010
Old age, strip restaurants and the inability to have a “normal” social life
Let’s start from the beginning… so I’m 30 now, and it doesn’t feel any different, but it does fill your mouth when you say it. And the celebration was definitely one to remember.
The plan was a small dinner with a few workmates and an old friend who came to visit, with the twist that is was going to be at a restaurant with strip shows. I was decided to make it something different, so when Liliana suggested it, I could only agree, even if it was completely out of character for me.
It was all good fun, until they tried to make me go and dance around the pole. I froze, I would have disappeared into thin air if I could have, but there came Lili to the rescue to help me get through it. She’s a good friend, right? If only I had any idea of what was coming… which was no less than a lap dance by one of the strippers!! Now I have an answer if anyone asks what was the most embarrassing moment of my life. Still, my face was hurting at the end of so much laughing.
And to finish the weekend… (I have to precise here, after Liliana and her psycho male equivalent meddling for weeks) I was asked to go out for dinner and movie with a workmate. I always wondered how men who are as shy as me would act, and I was able to see it. No complaints, seriously, I don’t think there was any uncomfortable silences, it was all very civilised, and I even got a box of chocolates but… aaaaaaaargh! How do some people make things look so easy!? The problem is I don’t like the guy other than as a friend, that’s why sometimes I felt quite mean, and I’m not mean!!
PS. The new Harry Potter is not worth however much the ticket cost, but it's just an opinion.
The plan was a small dinner with a few workmates and an old friend who came to visit, with the twist that is was going to be at a restaurant with strip shows. I was decided to make it something different, so when Liliana suggested it, I could only agree, even if it was completely out of character for me.
It was all good fun, until they tried to make me go and dance around the pole. I froze, I would have disappeared into thin air if I could have, but there came Lili to the rescue to help me get through it. She’s a good friend, right? If only I had any idea of what was coming… which was no less than a lap dance by one of the strippers!! Now I have an answer if anyone asks what was the most embarrassing moment of my life. Still, my face was hurting at the end of so much laughing.And to finish the weekend… (I have to precise here, after Liliana and her psycho male equivalent meddling for weeks) I was asked to go out for dinner and movie with a workmate. I always wondered how men who are as shy as me would act, and I was able to see it. No complaints, seriously, I don’t think there was any uncomfortable silences, it was all very civilised, and I even got a box of chocolates but… aaaaaaaargh! How do some people make things look so easy!? The problem is I don’t like the guy other than as a friend, that’s why sometimes I felt quite mean, and I’m not mean!!
PS. The new Harry Potter is not worth however much the ticket cost, but it's just an opinion.
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