Tuesday, 2 November 2010

Apprehension

This week the weather has been terrible; windy, rainy, a big drop in temperatures… you name it. But that also made work a bit more exciting, like being forced into a rollercoaster every time you get close to an aircraft. I feel sorry for all those people with an irrational fear of flying, or the passenger who ended up crying with pain because she could not wait any more to go to the toilet during a very long go around, or the people who got completely soaked by a sudden torrential downpour while trying to board and aircraft… Oh, the joys of flying!

On a different kind of topic, my mood has also been like on a rollercoaster and ended up crying of frustration more than once. There are a lot of new people starting at work, and I don’t feel like meeting them or working with them or socialising with them, but I know I have to, it’s part of life, so I need to stop moaning and try to be nice to them before I carve myself a horrible reputation.

And then, there’s also been an opening for a different position within the company that I would love to get. I have already applied, so now I can only wait, and then probably wait a bit more, until I realise that I’m never going to be called for an interview. However, I’ve been having all those thoughts of how it would feel getting it, having to leave Porto and this house, struggling to settle in a new place, missing the people… and I was wondering if I would have applied so quickly if my situation was different. Would I risk ruining a relationship by moving away? Or would any man even take that into consideration if it was him deciding between his career and his personal life?

And, of course, after so much overthinking I got peckish and decided to bake another batch of cupcakes, coffee and walnut this time. I couldn’t wait to try my new muffin tin, although it’s not a tin because it’s made of silicone, and the result looks quite good, I think. This time I decided to take a recipe for a cake and turn it into muffins, much easier to handle, but I still have a few untested muffin recipes, so there will be more to come. And I don’t see the harm in something that makes me happy, so all those preconceited people who think my hobbies are sad or laughable can screw themselves (excuse my language).

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