Happy Ending

"Happy Ending" by Mika

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

In other words...

The last couple of days I’ve been feeling quite down. Loneliness is never too far away even when I’m surrounded by people, and I can’t help but think that what seemed to be a recovery over the last year or so, has turned out to be a mirage, and I was trying to convince myself that things were getting better. In fact, I so desperately wanted things to get better that I forced myself to act as if everything was ok. But that’s very tiring.

What helped me believe things were actually on the up was that for the first time someone seemed to pay a small amount of attention to me. I can’t say that didn’t make me feel over the moon while it lasted, but the key part of it is the “while it lasted”, because of course it didn’t, leaving me with the feeling that I didn’t deserve the attention in the first place, and making me sink even deeper in my own desperation.

A way out? If there is one, it’s a long way away. I just hope my so called friends don’t get tired of my moaning.

But then, as suddenly as it came, this serious case of PMS cured itself, and this afternoon I decided that all I can do is what I’ve been doing all along. Keep going, never stop making plans for myself, and look at the bright side of things. How long is it gonna last? That’s a good question, but in case I need some reasons to be happy about myself in the next few weeks and months, this is the result of my reasoning:

• I’m back on track on my loan repayments, so my money problems are on the way to solving themselves. If I’ve had patience until now, I can wait a bit longer.
• I have an amazing family, and a few very good friends that I trust will be there for me come rain or shine (men will come and go -especially go- but family and friends will still be there).
• If I’ve managed to enchant a few frogs and turn them into prince charmings temporarily, I can probably do it again. Not that it should be a priority at all; it’s just proof that I’m not completely unlikeable.
• If I managed to get a degree (however useless one), and be able to keep a job (even get a commendation from time to time) I can’t be that stupid.

Summarising, I’m a catch: money wise (not rich just jet), loving, pretty, clever... hahahaha!! Should I add funny to the list? Maybe I’ve just discovered comedy is one of my hidden talents... or maybe not...